Letters To God

Today I got up and completed my first week of p90x. It's tough and I'm achy not really sore but it's doable with some modifications. I've been doing Biggest Loser for the month prior to starting p90x and have lost 5 pounds. That's exciting!! I am going to the wellness center at the end of the month and hopefully address my overall health and some of the changes (I think of as negative) that have happened over the last 16 months or so. I'm hopeful that I can feel better and be more able to "bring it" for my workouts and in daily life.
Today after class my friend Pattie and I went to see the movie "Letters to God". First---GO SEE IT!!!!!!!! I was truly one of the most inspiring movies I've seen! It made me stop and think. I have another friend who tells me I analyze way more than most people and he's probably right. I don't mean to but in retrospect I do think about things more than other people! My point being, if I were to right a letter to God about my life, those I love, those I want to forgive, the people in my sphere...what I say??? Furthermore, does this life, my letter to God and the world, say what I desire for it to??? Am I making choices that will leave a legacy I will be proud of? Have I told the people that matter that they matter and that I love them? So, my challenge to you is---What would you write to God and do those whom you love know you love them??? I lost my dad when he was 47 and I was 19 suddenly to a heart attack. It took that loss to know that you never know what's going to happen--people need to know how you feel.

Life Question

The last couple of days have been a bit trying for me as I've had a question on my mind. I know that I don't need a human answer but I need a God answer in my heart. However, I feel like I'm probably not the only one who asks. So, the question is why when I want to be the most encouraging/ the best friend/ the best sister or daughter do I seem to fail the most???? I know that my identity is in Jesus as a child of the King of Kings, a princess, not that of dental hygienist, friend, daughter, sister, hopefully someday wife and mother...I like those names but they aren't who I really am. I want to be a reflection of God in all ways. It seems when I want the right words/ kind deeds/ expression of love---I just don't have it.... Today I just don't understand why I don't have it....My feelings aren't always in line with God's truth. I know He's not left me or forgot me but I just don't feel like a very bright light. So, as much as I pray for you to be closer to God, today I'm asking for God to draw near to me; to help me feel effective, to be a good ______(fill in the title); mostly to fill my heart with His love...